“I did not have an easy childhood. I was molested from age 6-10 by my female babysitter. I went to a friends boyfriends house while she was busy. The boyfriends older brother decided he would teach me backgammon which led into a back massage which led into rape- my first heterosexual experience. He was 25 yrs old, I was 12.
My first boyfriend in grade 9 decided it would be fun to gang rape me (with 6 of his friends) Needless to say I had a hard time trusting humans. I just wanted off this earth. My parents tried to keep me safe but to me the world was not a safe place, my dad an alcoholic, my mom worked two jobs waitressing. My mom was always crying. Dad didn’t always come home leaving us in tremendous pain and worry. I couldn’t bare to give her any more disruptive information. I couldn’t break her heart any more than it was breaking. I kept these events to myself. Sometimes, when you smile, it’s not because you are happy, it’s because you are strong” she said